Limelight

After I left FF 11 which will always be my favorite MMORPG. I jumped right into World of Warcraft which I did hardcore progression and 10/25 man raiding. I had some great experiences and accomplished some pretty amazing things. It just wasn't the same after a while. So I left WoW and for the first time in a long time I didn't have a main MMO that I played. I lived in the limelight. I sporadically rejoined xpacs only to quit a few months later.

 A gamer at heart I started diving back into single player games and discovered what I had been missing. I had dropped off the games scene for a good 7 years. I can't believe what I had missed.

 I always had this void that only an MMORPG could fill though so I was never quite happy. My brief stints back into WoW  just weren' that t fun for the most part. The people that I loved hanging out with just aren't there anymore. I wanted to get things done like I did in the old days but I just didn't have the time like I used to. We used to call them casuals and for some reason. I thought that was a bad thing. Filthy casuals they used to say. I still had some of that hardcore urge.

 Then FF14 happened. It was great game but it ended up the same way. I kept struggling with myself between hardcore and casual. I didn't want to give up the other games I played. I didn't have the time to commit. In reality I had grown out of it. I did quit FF14 for a good while.  I did another brief stint in WoW before just taking some time for myself.

 Eventually I missed playing FF14 so I logged back in just myself at the time and went through the content I had missed. One by one some members of the old raid group came back over the few months I had started playing again. We were not a full group at the time but we farmed the primal ponies. I ended up putting the groups together for the most part. When heavensward hit we almost had a full group. I headed it up again after the raid content dropped we lost a person or two and we ended up at a stalemate. We just didn't have the time for the more challenging content. I just about quit and gave up again like I had for the past 2 years.

...but I didn't. I took a month off. When the new content dropped. I got right back to it. We gained another member and we filled out the group again. Even when we lost a person again we gained a new one that actually wanted to be there. The biggest change I made in those first few months as a truly solid group of friends that spreads across a few games is that...

I accepted a truth in me.

I was a casual now.

and you know what.

I was proud of it.

I made a change in my life.