I'm only me because of you.

 Rise high, high above our rivals

Spread our wings

Spread them wide

Let them guide

Hereby free to ever slumber

Open the door

Close our eyes

We are the dreamers

Sing a song of dawn

Dawn, the day reborn

Breathe deep of the dawn before the storm

 Though are existence may be brief, our deeds echo in eternity.

 Life's journey will end someday but the memories and that loving feeling will last forever.

 Now , now you are free

 Now you are gone and I am left to pick of the pieces. I miss you.

 This is the hardest post I have ever had to make in my life.

   You always think you are prepared for the worst. That  you are ready, but you are not. When you lose someone suddenly that you never even get to say goodbye or at least hold them until they slip away. My father passed away today. By the time I got there he was gone I fell to my knees. I cradled his arms I don't remember how long. I kissed his forehead and whispered that I loved him and will miss him.

   I've never hurt so much more in my life. I can't even process my thoughts right now

Here is the sink you woke up every morning to wash the dishes. You were always fond of wildlife you always knew what day it was. You never slept in or stopped working hard for your family. You must not have been feeling well because you hadn't moved the day for a week.

Here was the last cup of tea you brewed, you barely drank any that day. Cold and forgotten like the void in my soul right now. You loved the Packers and Twins you never gave up on them just like you never gave up fighting for us and our futures.

Here is your old Indiana Jones hat you were so proud of it. I just laughed I knew your favorite movies were the Indiana Jones Trilogy you probably watched them all 100 times each. Your other favorite was the middle earth books and movies we always talked about it. You were always supportive and tried to get involved in any books or anything I liked. You weren't just my Dad you were my best friend.

Here is your spartan room. Full of medical supplies and documents. Just one old bed that you rarely slept in. You worked hard your whole life, You were researching your genology and writing down books that Abby might like.. We never got to talk about it and well now we never will. I will slowly pick up the pieces of my shattered heart and struggle through life. It will be different because you have always been there for me my entire life, but now you are gone. Now you are just the wind on my face. The tears streak down it ravaged by time and grief. You wanted us to be happy it was your single goal in life.

Here is your chair that you spent the last years of your life in. You somehow got into playing ps4 games and tried to understand the technology. You even taught yourself how to play games and became a cool gamer dad. I was so proud of you.  You were a wealth of love and knowledge. I never looked up to anyone more than you. I will never be half the man you were no matter how hard I try.

Here is a speech you wrote a few years ago for fathers day. You were going to throw it away but I kept it because I wanted to remember how wonderful you were. If I could have spent more time with you I would. There was still so much I wanted to talk with you about but now those words and deeds are lost deep within the flows of time.

I loved you so much. I was so lucky to have you in my life, you were the most loyal and loving father anyone could ask for. You will never get the read this because you are in a better place up there in the sky. Just know that I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye and I love you. Hug you one last time and be there for you like you have been there for my whole life.

The world is a darker place without 

your love

your light

your faith

your honor

your strength 

I miss you

My thoughts will ever be of you

I will keep you in my heart until I to stand at the gates

I love you Dad