I understand now, sometimes you just can't be there for me anymore.

 I don't want the world to see me, 

because I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken , 

I just want you to know who I am

 

Some battles just can't be won, no matter how hard you fight.

 To far away times. 

To younger years.

To simpler moments in our lives 

Dear friends I loved you well

Each steadfast heart

 the dreams kept within

and though those days are lost

our story lives on

in bonds we forged

in battle blazing bright

in this old warriors heart

The journey is over , Now it's time to say goodbye.

 Smile for me, I would have this parting be a joyous one.

 I'm only me because of you.

 Rise high, high above our rivals

Spread our wings

Spread them wide

Let them guide

Hereby free to ever slumber

Open the door

Close our eyes

We are the dreamers

Sing a song of dawn

Dawn, the day reborn

Breathe deep of the dawn before the storm

 Though are existence may be brief, our deeds echo in eternity.

 Life's journey will end someday but the memories and that loving feeling will last forever.

 Now , now you are free

 Now you are gone and I am left to pick of the pieces. I miss you.

 This is the hardest post I have ever had to make in my life.

   You always think you are prepared for the worst. That  you are ready, but you are not. When you lose someone suddenly that you never even get to say goodbye or at least hold them until they slip away. My father passed away today. By the time I got there he was gone I fell to my knees. I cradled his arms I don't remember how long. I kissed his forehead and whispered that I loved him and will miss him.

   I've never hurt so much more in my life. I can't even process my thoughts right now

Here is the sink you woke up every morning to wash the dishes. You were always fond of wildlife you always knew what day it was. You never slept in or stopped working hard for your family. You must not have been feeling well because you hadn't moved the day for a week.

Here was the last cup of tea you brewed, you barely drank any that day. Cold and forgotten like the void in my soul right now. You loved the Packers and Twins you never gave up on them just like you never gave up fighting for us and our futures.

Here is your old Indiana Jones hat you were so proud of it. I just laughed I knew your favorite movies were the Indiana Jones Trilogy you probably watched them all 100 times each. Your other favorite was the middle earth books and movies we always talked about it. You were always supportive and tried to get involved in any books or anything I liked. You weren't just my Dad you were my best friend.

Here is your spartan room. Full of medical supplies and documents. Just one old bed that you rarely slept in. You worked hard your whole life, You were researching your genology and writing down books that Abby might like.. We never got to talk about it and well now we never will. I will slowly pick up the pieces of my shattered heart and struggle through life. It will be different because you have always been there for me my entire life, but now you are gone. Now you are just the wind on my face. The tears streak down it ravaged by time and grief. You wanted us to be happy it was your single goal in life.

Here is your chair that you spent the last years of your life in. You somehow got into playing ps4 games and tried to understand the technology. You even taught yourself how to play games and became a cool gamer dad. I was so proud of you.  You were a wealth of love and knowledge. I never looked up to anyone more than you. I will never be half the man you were no matter how hard I try.

Here is a speech you wrote a few years ago for fathers day. You were going to throw it away but I kept it because I wanted to remember how wonderful you were. If I could have spent more time with you I would. There was still so much I wanted to talk with you about but now those words and deeds are lost deep within the flows of time.

I loved you so much. I was so lucky to have you in my life, you were the most loyal and loving father anyone could ask for. You will never get the read this because you are in a better place up there in the sky. Just know that I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye and I love you. Hug you one last time and be there for you like you have been there for my whole life.

The world is a darker place without 

your love

your light

your faith

your honor

your strength 

I miss you

My thoughts will ever be of you

I will keep you in my heart until I to stand at the gates

I love you Dad

Watch me,

I will go to my own Sun.

And if I am burned by its fire,

I will fly on scorched wings.

 I used to dream of a bright future. Now I only dream of what cannot be.

 Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we still live.

"Falling down is how we grow. Staying down is how we die."

Ein Lächeln passt besser zu einem Helden

 Can a creature who has never known the light truly escape the darkness?

Perhaps. Or perhaps she will try to pull us all down into the darkness with her.

 I wish I could take all your pain away.

 In the end it was you who left me to fight alone just like the last time.

 I find it kinda funny. I find it kinda sad. The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.

In the light we are one.

Remember who you are

Now I will close my eyes and sink into darkness . . . and I will suffer no more.

There is no need to extinguish that flame, that love. No let it burn until it is spent, and one day, the ashes it leaves behind will become something more than the remnants of your pain.

Now I am nothing merely a shadow in the dust.

 All these moments that we shared , all the feelings that accompanied them . . . they are real as aught that came before and nothing will ever change that--will ever change what we mean to one another.

Nobody can take

 anything away from him

Nor can anyone give 

anything to him

Once, a man set out to court a siren believing true love could tame their violent nature . . .

. . . once.

Ayrlyn whispers softly "Find me in the next life"

. . . . . . . I will . . . . . . . .

I'm sorry I couldn't protect you

Just a leaf in the wind

You hold on to some

While some are forgotten 

To drift endlessly 

Sometimes our only choice is to walk away from everything we know

and there may come a day when you forget the faces and voices of those you have met along the way

Rise like the sun,
Stand like the mountain,
Charge like the lion,
Die as a hero

Failure is not the end. It is a necessary part of the path. Hope will always survive in those who continue to fight.

Is this the curse of fate or the whim of the moon?

Sometimes the hardest battles we face are the ones within

If I ever were to lose you, I would surely lose myself.

All my dreams pass before my eyes a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind

Someday I'll be important
Someday I'll be special
Someday I'll matter to you
but not today

Authors of our fates
Orchestrate our fall from grace
Poorest players on the stage
Our defiance drives us straight to the edge
A reflection in the glass
Recollections of our past
Swift as darkness, cold as ash
Far beyond this dream of paradise lost

Life and death...Love and hate...They are all the same.

Ayrlyn floats alone in the endless dark void of the Lake that time forgot. Her arms crossed across her chest as she slumbers. A faint light emanates from an unknown source. She hovers above a small plateau of stairs. Two stone pillars worn with age and the ravages of time flank the sides. Upon this small ruined structure she sleeps. A faint hum lulls her in this place lost beyond hope. To be forgotten is a fate worse then death the spirits whisper quietly. The words echo for eternity for this place is lost within the flows of time. A crumbled stone plate with worn writing lies on the stairs. The vines hold it together like a shattered dream that they wouldn't let go.

Once you stood against the world

You were loved once.

You were important once. 

You were needed once. 

But no longer

no longer

no longer . . . . . .

May you find your place amongst the stars

Death comes old soldier and all their hope dies with you.

I return to the icy shores of this broken land.

This is where it all began an age ago

Why do you come here ? What do you hope to find

Perhaps the answer is lost now deep within the flows of time

It's better to burn out than fade away.

Come with me to the place where magic has died. Let us breathe life and bring wonder to the world once more.

I cannot remember exactly the first time your soul whispered to mine, but I know you woke it. And it has never slept since.

Self is the only prison

that can ever bind

the soul

"If you try and go against réalité... Réalité will surely crush you. Réalité will kill you. And réalité will continue to go on az if not'ing ever happened... From yesterday to today, and from today to tomorrow. Réalité marchez on... Leaving your crushed body behind..."

Times catches deep in its arms both love and pain and erases them,
but I remember them
and always will...

I would be lost

Drifting alone

Floating up high

Time after time

And there you'd be

Shining brightly

Your smiling face

To guide my way

Bloody and bruised

Brought to my knees

When beaten down

When broken up

You would appear

Reach out to me

Heal every wound

And make me whole

Was it all a dream?

Will I never know?

Foolish and blind

To everything

Had I realized

Had I thought it through

Would you be here

In my embrace?

Shine bright once more

Guide me to you

Smile bright once more

This time I will never let you go

With your every smile

Hiding something more

Dark mysteries

Lurking beneath

But I was consumed

With this emptiness

This selfishness

This void to fill

Hear me once more

Show me your smile

This time for sure

I'll see the truth hidden inside your tears

But I... I know

That you're long gone

But I... I will...

Go on howling and howl low

We fall

 We fall 

We fall 

We fall unto the end 

One world's end

 Our world's end 

Our end 

We won't end 

I am shadow, I am the light

I guess it was all just a dream. It's time to wake up and forget.

I rather fight than just fake it.

"Everyone is hurt and separated... Inexperienced and incomplete... However, by living as such, we may change for the better into something bigger... Something more...gentle..."

Try to remember.  . .

Where did things go so wrong kitty on the wall?

Have I lost hope, her love, have I lost it all?

In this world that doesn't know wrong from right

Is it time to go silently into the night 

This stalemate we've been trapped in for so long

All I ask of her is to remember our song

Too often we don't realize what we have until it's gone.
Too often we're too stubborn to say, "Sorry, I was wrong".
Too often it seems we hurt the ones closest to our hearts,
and we let the most foolish things tear us apart.

I'll never let go

That was always your greatest strength

Instilling in others the courage to rise up

The courage to fight for what's right.

Come with me and you will see

What was always meant to be