Mind : Did you do it?

 Heart : Yes

Mind : What did it cost?

        Heart : Everything . . . . .

The pain of  rejection over the years has taken its toll. Have I just been so numb all this time?
I am not sure if I can even lift my head up with hope anymore after so many years. It might just be best to quietly reflect my mistakes and try to make sense of it all. The fire in my eyes has gone out and maybe that's for the best. There just isn't anything to look forward to anymore. Everything is meaningless and empty.

Farewell my dreams and hopes.
May the light guide you evermore.
I hope you find the happiness and love you seek.
 I walk the path alone once again to find my own way.
But,

 I'll  always remember
when we ran like the wind,
 Whilst our laughter echoed,
 Under Cerulean skies...

I'll always be a dreamer. My dreams will never be part of this world and just like them I will never belong here.

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If I break the glass, then I'll have to fly
There's no one to catch me if I take a dive

Legends are not born they are made

To truly understand me you must see the many facets of my soul not just the ones you perceive.

These screenshots tells you a story of me, each a facet of a many sided gem. I hope it helps you understand me a little better.

I never was the one that could easily explain why I do things the way I do or talk about how I feel. Instead I use music, screenshots and write stories. To express myself.

Here on this blog, right between this little  corner of the world and the middle of nowhere.

Just a nobody telling an epic story.

And now I must close my eyes for my soul is ever weary . . . .

Cause we're gonna shout it loud
Even if our words are meaningless
It's like I'm carrying the weight of the world

Tell me, God , are , you punishing me

Is this the price I'm paying
 for my past mistakes

I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday,
and the day before that, too.
I think of you in silence when I'm feeling blue

I'm just so tired my mind my body and my soul. Even my eyes have given  up. There is no point to any of this. I'm not needed anymore and just have no reason to fight. Let go

Every day that passes a small piece of me dies

A small ember that passes from the fire into the wind

Soon to be ash that will come to rest in this cold world

Such devastation I walk through these shattered lands

These heartless walls speak to me of better times

I leave them behind in this forsaken place of bitter memories

The empty homes taunt me as I walk slowly through

They laugh at me, there voices whisper and taunt me

There is no fight left to fight,  you will be forgotten . . .

I continue on alone seeking the warmth my heart has lost

Did hope give up on me or did I give up on it ? 

I cannot remember I search for a reason 

What was the start of all this? Where did it all go wrong?

Perhaps the answer is impossible to grasp now

Deep within the flow of time 

Is it lost to me or am I the one who is lost?
In the wasteland of my mind and soul

I've made my peace. To the Gods above hear my plea. Let me sleep eternally. This suffering has to end. Take me away to the land of dreams so I may rest until the end of time.

At the bottom of the lake that time forgot.

Down here my soul will slumber until it is needed once more. For the soul of a warrior never dies.

The golden knights walked in perfect formation  towards the ominous dark forest. So proud and magnificent they were. She ran between them yelling at them to stop but none seemed to hear her as they marched towards a certain doom.
"You are all going to die don't go in there, you are all going to die" Narilka screamed tears falling from her face
Finally a golden faced young man turned his head toward her  his words haunting and beautiful

Some things He said are worth dying for

If we are fundamentally broken then, I am fundamentally fucked up beyond repair.

You can accept your fate or defy it but you cannot deny it.

His words carried upon the ocean breeze, As he sank beneath the tide.

A fate that would end

I belong here with you though the earth cries inside me . . .

I will fly high into the storm . . .

Far from your light. I will be strong. . . .

Because they need you . . .

Because I love you. . .

You close your eyes now. . . .

and I will gone. . .

but my love for you will go on . . .

It may be destiny that sheds our tears . . .

You must leave me behind . . .

The song faded on Nicci's lips . . .

Ayrlyn still knelt with her arm still extend her palm facing upwards . . .

Slowly the storm started to tear them apart piece by piece. . .

They faded from view until their two hands were the only thing visible . . .

Two hands reaching towards each other . . .

You are the Sun and I am the Moon it was fate as we were never to meet. . . 

But in the rare times it does it eclipses  the whole world . . .

Should I die today. Bury me me where I die. My spirit will watch over the battlefield for all eternity.

A few days ago I booted up the SNES classics on my switch and loaded up my favorite racing game of all time. F-Zero was a child hood favorite of mine but the thing I enjoyed about it the most was the amazing music. It always got my blood pumping racing at break neck speeds around the futuristic tracks. Most people know F-zeros music  for Mute city but I have always loved the Big Blue track in the game. To times long gone when we ran like the wind.

Welcome to to final days. The fabric of our star began to fray and the unchecked energies of creation begat malformed beasts. Just as prayer gives rise to pride and hope. Our dread may manifest our deepest fears. The land buckled, the cities burned, the waters ran red with blood. Yet this was far from the worst of it. Come and I will show you. Just a little further and you will see the end of a world. Reality will crush us all.

Sometimes it's hard to hold on, so hard to hold on to my dreams
It isn't always what it seems when you're face to face with me

The wheels of time have turned and left their trails on every soul . . . . .

In the darkness we are never alone.