You always were a good boi.
I will bury these dreams that cannot be fulfilled
In a far away place so distant and remote
So that you will never find them
I will hide these feelings deep within
So that you will never see them
I will suppress my love for you so deeply
Even if it tears my soul apart all the way through
So that they will never hurt you


Forgive, forget and hold on. They are your friends after all and sometimes that is all you can do.
Together we were forged in the heart of a dying star.
and though those days are lost our story lives on . . . .

You must leave me behind
Though the night howls inside you
You must fly
High into the storm
Far from the light
You must be strong

To be forgotten is this the fate of the villain or is there an answer that lies deeper within flow of time?
I'm lost in the storm.
A single drop in the lake of time may reach the shores of our descendants.

Into the eye of the storm that time forgot






Ayrlyn walked in the endless void with no sense of direction. In this place that time forgot there was nothing. Time and space had no meaning here. She walked toward the one object she could fix her eyes on in the everdark. I figure stood there the distance. She could here a low hum as she grew closer. After what seemed like hours she could make out the red dress the figure wore their long blonde haired flowing wildly in the wind that had no source.

Ayrlyn tried to make out the face of the woman. She took a step closer and rain started to fall. Ever so slightly. With each step it grew heavier and heavier. It seeped into her skin and wounds chilling her to the bone. She grimaced as her body barely responded. She heard a voice.

Sorrow . . . .

She pressed on heading closer to the girl. She was a child of the Sun that much she could tell, but her eyes those eyes! They burned a bright orange like twin suns. A sunsinger, Nicci had told her of them. She had been the last of their kind. She would never use the power. Arylyn have never seen her use this form. Nicci told Ayrlyn she never would not even to save her own life.

Could it be her? She wondered as she grew ever closer the wind bit and tore at her skin. Ayrlyn stumbled as the wind grew fiercer and fiercer. She could here it's silent screaming.

Pain . . . . .

The red dress was adorned with gold and jewels they sparkled in the night. It was the same dress Nicci wore when Ayrlyn first met her. It had to be her she couldn't be mistaken. The swirling vortex of a storm grew in ferocity. See what she has seen The wraiths words echoed in Ayrlyn's head. She walked forward with a purpose even as the storm slowly tearing at her body. The lightning and thunder crackled around her. Momentarily blinded she shielded her eyes. She couldn't stop now

Anger . . . .

The storm beat against her body. It threatened to tear it apart.  She struggled to even budge even an inch. Almost as an invisible force held her back.

Go back  . . . .

Ayrlyn her body broken . Her mind shattered. She took another step forward. It took everything she had to not lose consciousness.

Please . . .

Ayrlyn took another step and lifted her voice in song faint at first in the storm

Lost in darkest blue
Endless labyrinths weaving though
Will you stagger on, 
with no star to light your way?
Share with me your tears
All your troubles and deepest fears   
I remember when 
you chased all my shadows away

Won't you take my hand?
Come away with me from this land
Let me give to you 
all that you have given to me  
Fly horizon bound
Find the moon behind darkening clouds  
Even far apart, 
know our souls together will be

When the storm draws nigh
Dreams will shatter before your eyes
Know that you're not alone
When the battle starts
I will comfort your restless heart
You'll know that you are home

When your stars stop shining
Endless vines around you winding
Know that you're not alone
I will give my all
So your tears will no longer fall
Down, down on sorrow's stone      

Look into my eyes
All eternity you will find
In this fragile heart, 
know that you will always belong
Shout into the night
Show the darkness  that you will fight
Hopeless you may feel, 
but inside I know you are strong 

Keep me in your heart
So we'll never be far apart
Let the bonds of love 
break these chains imprisoning you
Always you will find
Shadows lingering close behind   
Lift your spirits now,   
We shall be together soon

Ayrlyn lifted her head now face to face with her and gazed into Nicci's eyes. they burned with the fire of one thousand suns. They pierced the depths of her very soul. Her dress was torn and ragged. The jewelry broken and twisted. Scars ran up and down her body. A broken tiara hung in her hair. Tears flow from her eyes endlessly. Nicci's face was contorted into a mixture of fear, pain and anger.

Ayrlyn slowly sank to her knee her body spent and beginning to fade as the storm tore it apart. She gazed up into Nicci's eyes. She raised her working arm up with an upturned palm. Ayrlyn spoke her soul laid before her

Grant me this one last chance to make things right 

Show me what you have seen. 

Let us fight together again side by side

Ayrlyn bowed her head. Nicci's eyes flickered for a moment her hair sank down from the unseen wind. She gazed at Ayrlyn's bowed head. Her burning orbs then turned to Aylyns hand.













If history must be unwritten then let it be unwritten.



Why I am still here? Why did I even exist in the first place? How much more can I take when I hurt so much ? Sometimes I wonder why I endure this life . I go on searching for answers, am I a shadow that is doomed to fade? Is it love, hope, or is it something deeper that drives me?  I don't understand. Please release me, throw wide the gates so that I may pass.

All that glitters is not gold

There's no one to catch me if I take a dive